WHAT A WAKE - UP CALL

Well todays post is nothing spectacular, but I have had alot on my mind lately. I started watching this 8 month old today. His mom just needed me on Wed. and Thurs. for 4 hours and some Fridays. I thought that would be great to get a little extra cash and have someone for Logan to play with. Well when she dropped him off and didn't want to leave him, and called in between the 4 hours. I realized how lucky I really am!!! I remember 8 years ago when I HAD to work and there was no other option. I had to take Malarie to a babysitter. Still when I think about it, my heart aches. Tears would come down my face everyday. I hated leaving her. I know some people don't have a choice, but I just wanted to publicly say how thankful I am to be a stay at home mom.



Then the other thing that has been on my mind is the fact that I need to be better at living in the moment and not so worried about what has to get done!!! Yesterday morning I woke up and could not get out of my bed. I was so scared that the dream I had was reality! (Anybody else have dreams that are so real?) Anyways I'll spare everybody the details, but my baby had passed away and my husband was barely alive. This dream has made me look @ things a little different. Even though sometimes I get so stressed out about the little things. And feel like there is never enough time in the day to get EVERYTHING done that I think is so necessary. And sometimes think my kids HAVE to be the naughtiest kids ever. I still know what a blessing my family is and I wouldn't change any of them. (ok except for when my kids are naughty)Anyways sorry to bore you just had to write what I have been thinking. Here are the kiddos just being themselves!!!